May 14th

May 14th, Stargazer


Stop. Stop. Stop. 2.32 am. Today would be day three without any sleep. There was nothing wrong with him, he just couldn't shut his thoughts down. Even with his eyelids closed, the transcripts of broken thoughts ran white across the black background. He'd actually grown rather fond of them, finding that fighting it only made it worse. So he gave in and went under.

"It takes the sun's rays 8 minutes and 20 seconds to reach earth. So if the sun died, we wouldn't know it for-"
"the universe is constantly expanding to-"
human beings are the only living thi-"

"I will always be here."

Stop. Stop. It was dangerous to let his mind wander too far. Even with his brain so completely frazzled, he knew that that was forbidden ground. The moment he allowed himself to take on step into that mess, he would sink. Sometimes he was grateful for all the weariness, he could barely even stand up, much less over think things.

2.33 am

But the stray thought had done its dues. He wasnt going to get any sleep tonight. Make that day four.
With a heavy sigh, he heaved himself from bed, winching at the sharp pain that gathered at his temples. The still dark backdrop of the fresh day stood waiting for him and his telescope, seducing and sultry, inviting him with their twinkling mystery.
As he leaned into the eyepiece, the constellations took their places in the sky, stricking poses before the view of his telescope. A faint recollection of a forgotten promise tugged at the back of his mind, one of the stars and of blissful oblivious time spent. But the memory ran away before he could grab hold of it. It didn't matter though, he wouldnt remember regretting it tomorrow. The universe is constantly expanding, but he couldn't recall what he was so sad about leaving behind.

It couldn't have been very important, anyway.